happy bday present???

she agree wit it...
unexpected result...
can i say tis is the best 'present' i got its year??
hahaha...

part of me is happy wit tis...
but part of me worried...
wil we be lik last time again??
dun wanna wait n start early... result to i cant hold my promise nor responsible...
lets all hope tis wont happen again...
u ask i hav hope in tis relationship???
i hav high hopes on tis... n i dunno tat i'm able to let u go at all anot...
i dun even nie my heart can be so reluieved after yest...
i fel lik lost tonnes of weight suddenly...

lets all hope tis work out smoothly n hav a happy ending...

it's been long i renew my blog...
so long...
so bz til cant write...
so very very sorry to those who so long to c me write tis...
now going utar to study...
haiz............. finally study...........
but is it really wat i wan??? or sum1's desire???
haiz...

i really dunno...
wanna ask u all sum damn weird ques...
wat am i to u all???
wat do u all think fo me???
mb i abit crazy hre...
yeah...

n one mor, y i always so bad luck in tis love thingy??
haiz........
always kena reject de... twice oso lik tat...
or too late...
arghhhh..........

if u all wan ans can go ahead...
but u ask wat happen to me, i wil say i'm crazy ad...

my target is to accomplise all tis in 2 year time...

1.朦胧醒来回你信息..
2.半夜里接你的电话..
3.告诉你——到家了就发消息给他..
4.你半夜睡不着发消息给他..他会陪你聊天..
5.雨天..同撑一把伞..他衣服的一半是湿的..
6.不论走到哪里..都一直拉着你的手..
7.愿意吃你吃不下的东西..
8.从来不迟到..你迟到他不会生气
9.不论去哪里..他都会来接你..无怨无悔..
10.不乱花钱..但肯为你花钱..
11.拥抱很久..很紧..
12.记得你说过的所有事..
13.轻轻拧开你拧不开的汽水瓶..
14.常常发消息告诉你..突然很想你..
15.常常给你留言..
16.不舒服时..他会很担心很着急..
17.吵架时不会一走了之..
18.他错了会认错..你错了不会怪你..
19.吵架后..会无条件地哄你..放下面子..
20.从不忍心责备你..无条件包容你..
21.会一直保护你..害怕你受一点点委屈..
22.你说笑话他会笑..会觉得你很可爱..
23.比你高..
24.会一个人安静地思考..但决不冷漠..
25.许多方面都很厉害..让你崇拜..
26.会一直夸你..给你鼓励..
27.不对你隐瞒什么..
28.百分百信任你..
29.不花言巧语..
30.不会因为玩游戏而忽略你..
31.不抽烟少喝酒..
32.有活动安排事先和你打招呼..
33.和朋友出去时..要想着你..
34.重大的事情和你商量..
35.和大人在一起像大人..和孩子在一起像孩子..
36.喜欢你..从未犹豫..不拿你和别的女孩子比较.

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37.从未想过离开你的世界..
38.你买给他的东西他都会喜欢..
39.对女孩子有风度..也有距离..
40.认识你的一些好朋友..拜托她们照顾你..
41.了解你的烦恼与困惑..不厌其烦地倾听..
42.很少让你哭..你哭的时候会很心疼..紧紧地抱住你.. 告诉你都是他的错..
43.可以随时找到他..
44.靠在他肩膀的时候很安心..
45.和他在一起有种温暖的感觉..
46.不重色轻友..也不重友轻色..
47.计划的未来里..你是重要的一部分..

r u satify wit all tis??
u can add if u wan...

so miss her...
wat should i do???
haiz...
can any1tel me wat should i do??
arghhh....
how i going to shake tis away??
tel me...............................

wat day should i cal tis???

yeah... wat day should i cal 2day???
wat wil u cal????
summor it is on thurs...
y is all imp thing oni wil going to on thurs???

i think u noe 2day is very wel...
i noe u might dun wan to noe abt tis...
but i muz say tat...
i very very very MISS U...
Miss every detail thing abt u..
你身上的味道。。
那芳香的法香。。
那一直在冒汗的手。。
那细细的腰。。
那身体的温暖。。
那小唇。。
我能把这一切忘掉吗？？
你能吗？？？
我不能。。

but wat can i do???
there's not even a tiny thing tat i can do...
y???
i fel so alone now...
y is it so???
y cant i fulfil every single promise to u lik i do to others???
y???
i oso dunno...
is it my fault or ur fault???
i really lost track of things...
i really dunno wat is da nex step anymor...
can anyone tel me???
stephy... bee... claus.. ann... 5s...
i lost hre...

re:

wat the hell jz happen to her??
i dunno...
she dun even wish to tel me or chat wit me anymor when lady sickness again...
y???
is a muz to do so???
i cant be de sum one who really care abt u anymor???
muz u do so???
al i wish is we stil can be lik past...
chat lik usual...
u tel me ur prob n i tel u urs...
but wat u mean in last post means u really wanna cut me off ur life rite???
jz tel me wat u desire the most...
to leave u alone totally tis 2 n half year or share every thing as past we do???
i wil grant ur wish...

wat can i do??
to win bac ur trust...
jz tel it...
i wil be prepare at 2013...
i dunno wat ur uncle did...
but i noe pretty wel to control my stress..

how u can 4 get abt 23/4???
i dunno u jz make it out or u really dunno...
u jz remind abt tis day tat i so unable to 4get arond a month ago...
i dunno...
wat should i do???
i really short of idea now...

i going to us embassy 2moro...
my mom ask me to...
dunno 4 wat...
but to ur acknowledge...
i wont go there to study so early...
cz my mom wont let me go there alone...
so i might jz start stpm 1st...
or if there is sumone willing to giv me a loan i wil go inti or sunway taking a adp...

all i wanna tel her is i luv u......
always...
N my luv wil not change...

weird??? y???

wat the hell is my brain lately???
y i fel so weird???
wat is happening in my internal???
y is it so disturb????

may be is the problem again...
it been so long ad...
3 weeks...
y is it coming oni now when i desire ful focus???
i dunno...

i so hope we can be lik past even we hav break up...
atleast a few sms per day wil do...
but i noe she wont do so...
n i dun dare to do so any longer...
i hav no guts to even sms her...
y???
Y is tis happen to me??
i dunno...
can any one cure me???

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH