wat day should i cal tis???

yeah... wat day should i cal 2day???
wat wil u cal????
summor it is on thurs...
y is all imp thing oni wil going to on thurs???

i think u noe 2day is very wel...
i noe u might dun wan to noe abt tis...
but i muz say tat...
i very very very MISS U...
Miss every detail thing abt u..
你身上的味道。。
那芳香的法香。。
那一直在冒汗的手。。
那细细的腰。。
那身体的温暖。。
那小唇。。
我能把这一切忘掉吗？？
你能吗？？？
我不能。。

but wat can i do???
there's not even a tiny thing tat i can do...
y???
i fel so alone now...
y is it so???
y cant i fulfil every single promise to u lik i do to others???
y???
i oso dunno...
is it my fault or ur fault???
i really lost track of things...
i really dunno wat is da nex step anymor...
can anyone tel me???
stephy... bee... claus.. ann... 5s...
i lost hre...

re:

wat the hell jz happen to her??
i dunno...
she dun even wish to tel me or chat wit me anymor when lady sickness again...
y???
is a muz to do so???
i cant be de sum one who really care abt u anymor???
muz u do so???
al i wish is we stil can be lik past...
chat lik usual...
u tel me ur prob n i tel u urs...
but wat u mean in last post means u really wanna cut me off ur life rite???
jz tel me wat u desire the most...
to leave u alone totally tis 2 n half year or share every thing as past we do???
i wil grant ur wish...

wat can i do??
to win bac ur trust...
jz tel it...
i wil be prepare at 2013...
i dunno wat ur uncle did...
but i noe pretty wel to control my stress..

how u can 4 get abt 23/4???
i dunno u jz make it out or u really dunno...
u jz remind abt tis day tat i so unable to 4get arond a month ago...
i dunno...
wat should i do???
i really short of idea now...

i going to us embassy 2moro...
my mom ask me to...
dunno 4 wat...
but to ur acknowledge...
i wont go there to study so early...
cz my mom wont let me go there alone...
so i might jz start stpm 1st...
or if there is sumone willing to giv me a loan i wil go inti or sunway taking a adp...

all i wanna tel her is i luv u......
always...
N my luv wil not change...

weird??? y???

wat the hell is my brain lately???
y i fel so weird???
wat is happening in my internal???
y is it so disturb????

may be is the problem again...
it been so long ad...
3 weeks...
y is it coming oni now when i desire ful focus???
i dunno...

i so hope we can be lik past even we hav break up...
atleast a few sms per day wil do...
but i noe she wont do so...
n i dun dare to do so any longer...
i hav no guts to even sms her...
y???
Y is tis happen to me??
i dunno...
can any one cure me???

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

4 ann, claus, 5S n the rest

it is oni small injury...
so dun worry okie???
dun ask me stop....
i wil be bac by june...
so get ready okie?
i wil ned a tough training bac...
i hav gain tummy now...
hahaha

miss u all guys...

^^

1st victory in the year...

yes we won it..
79-103
is it lucky or wat???
i dunno...

at the 1st match i tot i saw u...
i was so distract til i get knock down...
but i noe it wont be u cz u was in camp tat time...
i dunno now....
am i able to stay focus as lastime????
without u now...
is jz like lost every bone in my body...

hope u noe tis...

23/4
how can i 4get wat day is ti 2day?
tat day i consider is the luckiest day i ever had... cz of u...
i dun think u noe it rite...
maybe u noe it...
but still, v cant celebrate irt rite???

u say v wont able to met tis 2 year...
i so hope it's oni tis 2 year...
but tis not i hope the most....

u get 3rd yest even so many incident happen...
tat is consider luck or wat, i really dunno...
but u 4 get is thurs... my only off day 4 the week...
i suppose to go ur house n met...
maybe congrat u or sumthing..
but i guess i wont hav tis chance to do so any mor rite???

31/3... iwil rmb tis date til i die...
i so hope tat u can tel me now all tis is jz a joke....
den say aprilfool or sumthing n lol...
i so u say tis...
on 1/4...
but.........
wat u say is u tel ur mom...
tat means it is all truth hre now...
no way to turn bac or sumthing...

tis 3 wek i really suffer...
i fel lik i was in hell...
all heat of mine has been drain...
all left now is jz a shell fill a cold stone n freezy cold blood...
no heat can warm it bac...
except ur body heat... i think now...
is tis really our destiny???
i dunno...

last 2 wek i went to my fren stall to buy present 4 my best fren bday...
the stall keeper ask how abt the bear i want last time...
it suppose to mail to u or giv to u by yest... but after all tis.......
i really wanna hang my self or sumthing...
god save me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

do u hav to do it tat time???
i rmb once u say every thing tat u hav gave up in the past u wil always regret abt it....
i so hope it is true...
u noe???
i really fel lik wanna turn every detail abt u into ashes...
but i cant...Y????
cz of the luv...
i dunno how much longer i can hold...
every times i saw james i can smile n fell the happiness...
but now... it always make cry oni whenever i luk at it...
but i cant afford to giv u bac or throw it...
cz it is the item u giv me...
the 1st bear u ever sew....
as my bday present...
it mean so much to me...
too much...

u say it is not luv...
it is all jz admiring...
i dunno tis is truth anot... or is it jz a sentence 4 me to 4 get u...
i dunno n i dun wanna noe...
i really go deep 4 tis...
very deep...
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
tat is all i can say..
i wil wait...
even it is 10 years, 100 years or even 1000 years...
i wil wait 4 u...

bb finally

Finally they cal me to substitue one injure player... yipeee.....
but cani play lik last time now???
2 months no proper training, jz get hurt so deep...

n a knife cut on my finger???

haiz ......... di=unno la...
muz play tis time... so long didnt play ad... hahahaha....

jz wanna tel u ta i hav change all my psd bac to da old one...

再好的东西，都有失去的一天。
再深的记忆，也有淡忘的一天。
再爱的人，也有远走的一天。 再美的梦，也有苏醒的一天。

该放弃的决不挽留，
该珍惜的决不放手，
分手后不可以做朋友，
因为彼此伤害过！
也不可以做敌人，
因为彼此深爱过。

should i believe in tis???
tis is so true...
hope we can jz go bac to past...

she get bully??

should i???
i really dunno...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tat day i got an interview
but i kinda mess up...
if u ask me did i ask her anything or tel her anything abt tis, sory no...
i hav no guts 4 her..
haiz

passer by in her life???
give up... hahahahahaaahahahahahhah..............................
i really crazy ad... who can send me to mental hospital now??? plz................. ned urgent intensive care now....

no turning bac... she so mis understand my meanig ad... hahahhahahahahhaha......
i think i so gonig to be crazy by now.....

no matter wat i explain now, it is really going to no turning bac of tis pain now....... cz she ad let it all go... there is really nothing i can do.... no mor... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

finally she ask it.........

she tel me she ad tel her mom abt us... she say she dun lik my nature... n her nature not suit me...
she really dun wan tis relation ship anymor... maybe after spm, she wil reconsider bac... when i hear tis my heart immediately get as pain as last few day... jz it is mor painful tis time... my tear ooze out lik lava flowing out from a jz exploding volcano... nothing i do stop it... my mom came home n jz around to saw it... i say tat i was cutting onion 4 cooking maggi jz now... wat is happening to my tear gland??

do i really deserve such pain??? y de hell tis is happening to me??? she promise ta tis sort of thing wont happen...after i really put real feeling n push myself deep into her, now she dun wan me to wait... she ask me to find a mor suitable girl... do she hav any idea i oni got feeling wit her in tis such long period???

tis feeling is getting mor n mor sux... i dunno whether i can stand all tis... i cant concentrate mor in my work nor life... all my brain now is full of her tis is suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...

now my heart stil pain while i'm writing tis... my tear keep rolling down.. no matter wat i do, it jz wont stop...my eye is so swollen now... i dunno wat can i do wit it... i stil hav work... i cant claim mc or offday such sudden...

haiz.... god help me...
plz... i pray 4 ur light to guide me out of tis sahdow... i ask 4 ur hand to get me out from tis dark hole i jz fall in...