finally she ask it.........

she tel me she ad tel her mom abt us... she say she dun lik my nature... n her nature not suit me...
she really dun wan tis relation ship anymor... maybe after spm, she wil reconsider bac... when i hear tis my heart immediately get as pain as last few day... jz it is mor painful tis time... my tear ooze out lik lava flowing out from a jz exploding volcano... nothing i do stop it... my mom came home n jz around to saw it... i say tat i was cutting onion 4 cooking maggi jz now... wat is happening to my tear gland??

do i really deserve such pain??? y de hell tis is happening to me??? she promise ta tis sort of thing wont happen...after i really put real feeling n push myself deep into her, now she dun wan me to wait... she ask me to find a mor suitable girl... do she hav any idea i oni got feeling wit her in tis such long period???

tis feeling is getting mor n mor sux... i dunno whether i can stand all tis... i cant concentrate mor in my work nor life... all my brain now is full of her tis is suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...

now my heart stil pain while i'm writing tis... my tear keep rolling down.. no matter wat i do, it jz wont stop...my eye is so swollen now... i dunno wat can i do wit it... i stil hav work... i cant claim mc or offday such sudden...

haiz.... god help me...
plz... i pray 4 ur light to guide me out of tis sahdow... i ask 4 ur hand to get me out from tis dark hole i jz fall in...