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26 jun... celebration of 37 ppl bday... so huge party...

Guess how many kg of cream is in tis cake...

150+kg....

can u believe it???

ouch...

there are addition sum mor...

almost get sum in my face...

hahah... i too gud in escaping...

oni get sum cr3am on my shirt...

hahaha... u all didnt get my oily n cr3amy oso... hahaha...

37 ppl bday n 120++ ppl partying... but isn't it too many cake on the table ad?

with oni 37s bday but they make mor den 50 cake...

wat is wrong hre???

but nvr mind... we manage to finish all food oso in the end...

dude... they went n hire cook wa...

all food is cook on the spot de..

even a fried noodle is cook plate by plate...

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i wait so long for a food...

the best is the steak la...

damn gud timing de...

nvr try such nice steak in my life...

thx 4 all of u...

most imp part, how come u all think of swimming party de???

summor all muz wear swim suit wa...

lucky my tummy now smaller ad... haha...

oh i think all girl wil be screaming after c my tummy...

hahaha...

ke xin a??

can u send all de photo u took tat day???

i oni got few...

i wan all...

n dun upload any 1st...

thx.............. hehe

happy bday present???

she agree wit it...
unexpected result...
can i say tis is the best 'present' i got its year??
hahaha...

part of me is happy wit tis...
but part of me worried...
wil we be lik last time again??
dun wanna wait n start early... result to i cant hold my promise nor responsible...
lets all hope tis wont happen again...
u ask i hav hope in tis relationship???
i hav high hopes on tis... n i dunno tat i'm able to let u go at all anot...
i dun even nie my heart can be so reluieved after yest...
i fel lik lost tonnes of weight suddenly...

lets all hope tis work out smoothly n hav a happy ending...

it's been long i renew my blog...
so long...
so bz til cant write...
so very very sorry to those who so long to c me write tis...
now going utar to study...
haiz............. finally study...........
but is it really wat i wan??? or sum1's desire???
haiz...

i really dunno...
wanna ask u all sum damn weird ques...
wat am i to u all???
wat do u all think fo me???
mb i abit crazy hre...
yeah...

n one mor, y i always so bad luck in tis love thingy??
haiz........
always kena reject de... twice oso lik tat...
or too late...
arghhhh..........

if u all wan ans can go ahead...
but u ask wat happen to me, i wil say i'm crazy ad...

my target is to accomplise all tis in 2 year time...

1.朦胧醒来回你信息..
2.半夜里接你的电话..
3.告诉你——到家了就发消息给他..
4.你半夜睡不着发消息给他..他会陪你聊天..
5.雨天..同撑一把伞..他衣服的一半是湿的..
6.不论走到哪里..都一直拉着你的手..
7.愿意吃你吃不下的东西..
8.从来不迟到..你迟到他不会生气
9.不论去哪里..他都会来接你..无怨无悔..
10.不乱花钱..但肯为你花钱..
11.拥抱很久..很紧..
12.记得你说过的所有事..
13.轻轻拧开你拧不开的汽水瓶..
14.常常发消息告诉你..突然很想你..
15.常常给你留言..
16.不舒服时..他会很担心很着急..
17.吵架时不会一走了之..
18.他错了会认错..你错了不会怪你..
19.吵架后..会无条件地哄你..放下面子..
20.从不忍心责备你..无条件包容你..
21.会一直保护你..害怕你受一点点委屈..
22.你说笑话他会笑..会觉得你很可爱..
23.比你高..
24.会一个人安静地思考..但决不冷漠..
25.许多方面都很厉害..让你崇拜..
26.会一直夸你..给你鼓励..
27.不对你隐瞒什么..
28.百分百信任你..
29.不花言巧语..
30.不会因为玩游戏而忽略你..
31.不抽烟少喝酒..
32.有活动安排事先和你打招呼..
33.和朋友出去时..要想着你..
34.重大的事情和你商量..
35.和大人在一起像大人..和孩子在一起像孩子..
36.喜欢你..从未犹豫..不拿你和别的女孩子比较.

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37.从未想过离开你的世界..
38.你买给他的东西他都会喜欢..
39.对女孩子有风度..也有距离..
40.认识你的一些好朋友..拜托她们照顾你..
41.了解你的烦恼与困惑..不厌其烦地倾听..
42.很少让你哭..你哭的时候会很心疼..紧紧地抱住你.. 告诉你都是他的错..
43.可以随时找到他..
44.靠在他肩膀的时候很安心..
45.和他在一起有种温暖的感觉..
46.不重色轻友..也不重友轻色..
47.计划的未来里..你是重要的一部分..

r u satify wit all tis??
u can add if u wan...

so miss her...
wat should i do???
haiz...
can any1tel me wat should i do??
arghhh....
how i going to shake tis away??
tel me...............................

wat day should i cal tis???

yeah... wat day should i cal 2day???
wat wil u cal????
summor it is on thurs...
y is all imp thing oni wil going to on thurs???

i think u noe 2day is very wel...
i noe u might dun wan to noe abt tis...
but i muz say tat...
i very very very MISS U...
Miss every detail thing abt u..
你身上的味道。。
那芳香的法香。。
那一直在冒汗的手。。
那细细的腰。。
那身体的温暖。。
那小唇。。
我能把这一切忘掉吗？？
你能吗？？？
我不能。。

but wat can i do???
there's not even a tiny thing tat i can do...
y???
i fel so alone now...
y is it so???
y cant i fulfil every single promise to u lik i do to others???
y???
i oso dunno...
is it my fault or ur fault???
i really lost track of things...
i really dunno wat is da nex step anymor...
can anyone tel me???
stephy... bee... claus.. ann... 5s...
i lost hre...

re:

wat the hell jz happen to her??
i dunno...
she dun even wish to tel me or chat wit me anymor when lady sickness again...
y???
is a muz to do so???
i cant be de sum one who really care abt u anymor???
muz u do so???
al i wish is we stil can be lik past...
chat lik usual...
u tel me ur prob n i tel u urs...
but wat u mean in last post means u really wanna cut me off ur life rite???
jz tel me wat u desire the most...
to leave u alone totally tis 2 n half year or share every thing as past we do???
i wil grant ur wish...

wat can i do??
to win bac ur trust...
jz tel it...
i wil be prepare at 2013...
i dunno wat ur uncle did...
but i noe pretty wel to control my stress..

how u can 4 get abt 23/4???
i dunno u jz make it out or u really dunno...
u jz remind abt tis day tat i so unable to 4get arond a month ago...
i dunno...
wat should i do???
i really short of idea now...

i going to us embassy 2moro...
my mom ask me to...
dunno 4 wat...
but to ur acknowledge...
i wont go there to study so early...
cz my mom wont let me go there alone...
so i might jz start stpm 1st...
or if there is sumone willing to giv me a loan i wil go inti or sunway taking a adp...

all i wanna tel her is i luv u......
always...
N my luv wil not change...

weird??? y???

wat the hell is my brain lately???
y i fel so weird???
wat is happening in my internal???
y is it so disturb????

may be is the problem again...
it been so long ad...
3 weeks...
y is it coming oni now when i desire ful focus???
i dunno...

i so hope we can be lik past even we hav break up...
atleast a few sms per day wil do...
but i noe she wont do so...
n i dun dare to do so any longer...
i hav no guts to even sms her...
y???
Y is tis happen to me??
i dunno...
can any one cure me???

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

4 ann, claus, 5S n the rest

it is oni small injury...
so dun worry okie???
dun ask me stop....
i wil be bac by june...
so get ready okie?
i wil ned a tough training bac...
i hav gain tummy now...
hahaha

miss u all guys...

^^

1st victory in the year...

yes we won it..
79-103
is it lucky or wat???
i dunno...

at the 1st match i tot i saw u...
i was so distract til i get knock down...
but i noe it wont be u cz u was in camp tat time...
i dunno now....
am i able to stay focus as lastime????
without u now...
is jz like lost every bone in my body...

hope u noe tis...

23/4
how can i 4get wat day is ti 2day?
tat day i consider is the luckiest day i ever had... cz of u...
i dun think u noe it rite...
maybe u noe it...
but still, v cant celebrate irt rite???

u say v wont able to met tis 2 year...
i so hope it's oni tis 2 year...
but tis not i hope the most....

u get 3rd yest even so many incident happen...
tat is consider luck or wat, i really dunno...
but u 4 get is thurs... my only off day 4 the week...
i suppose to go ur house n met...
maybe congrat u or sumthing..
but i guess i wont hav tis chance to do so any mor rite???

31/3... iwil rmb tis date til i die...
i so hope tat u can tel me now all tis is jz a joke....
den say aprilfool or sumthing n lol...
i so u say tis...
on 1/4...
but.........
wat u say is u tel ur mom...
tat means it is all truth hre now...
no way to turn bac or sumthing...

tis 3 wek i really suffer...
i fel lik i was in hell...
all heat of mine has been drain...
all left now is jz a shell fill a cold stone n freezy cold blood...
no heat can warm it bac...
except ur body heat... i think now...
is tis really our destiny???
i dunno...

last 2 wek i went to my fren stall to buy present 4 my best fren bday...
the stall keeper ask how abt the bear i want last time...
it suppose to mail to u or giv to u by yest... but after all tis.......
i really wanna hang my self or sumthing...
god save me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

do u hav to do it tat time???
i rmb once u say every thing tat u hav gave up in the past u wil always regret abt it....
i so hope it is true...
u noe???
i really fel lik wanna turn every detail abt u into ashes...
but i cant...Y????
cz of the luv...
i dunno how much longer i can hold...
every times i saw james i can smile n fell the happiness...
but now... it always make cry oni whenever i luk at it...
but i cant afford to giv u bac or throw it...
cz it is the item u giv me...
the 1st bear u ever sew....
as my bday present...
it mean so much to me...
too much...

u say it is not luv...
it is all jz admiring...
i dunno tis is truth anot... or is it jz a sentence 4 me to 4 get u...
i dunno n i dun wanna noe...
i really go deep 4 tis...
very deep...
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
わたしは、あなたを愛しています
tat is all i can say..
i wil wait...
even it is 10 years, 100 years or even 1000 years...
i wil wait 4 u...

bb finally

Finally they cal me to substitue one injure player... yipeee.....
but cani play lik last time now???
2 months no proper training, jz get hurt so deep...

n a knife cut on my finger???

haiz ......... di=unno la...
muz play tis time... so long didnt play ad... hahahaha....

jz wanna tel u ta i hav change all my psd bac to da old one...

再好的东西，都有失去的一天。
再深的记忆，也有淡忘的一天。
再爱的人，也有远走的一天。 再美的梦，也有苏醒的一天。

该放弃的决不挽留，
该珍惜的决不放手，
分手后不可以做朋友，
因为彼此伤害过！
也不可以做敌人，
因为彼此深爱过。

should i believe in tis???
tis is so true...
hope we can jz go bac to past...

she get bully??

should i???
i really dunno...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tat day i got an interview
but i kinda mess up...
if u ask me did i ask her anything or tel her anything abt tis, sory no...
i hav no guts 4 her..
haiz

passer by in her life???
give up... hahahahahaaahahahahahhah..............................
i really crazy ad... who can send me to mental hospital now??? plz................. ned urgent intensive care now....

no turning bac... she so mis understand my meanig ad... hahahhahahahahhaha......
i think i so gonig to be crazy by now.....

no matter wat i explain now, it is really going to no turning bac of tis pain now....... cz she ad let it all go... there is really nothing i can do.... no mor... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

finally she ask it.........

she tel me she ad tel her mom abt us... she say she dun lik my nature... n her nature not suit me...
she really dun wan tis relation ship anymor... maybe after spm, she wil reconsider bac... when i hear tis my heart immediately get as pain as last few day... jz it is mor painful tis time... my tear ooze out lik lava flowing out from a jz exploding volcano... nothing i do stop it... my mom came home n jz around to saw it... i say tat i was cutting onion 4 cooking maggi jz now... wat is happening to my tear gland??

do i really deserve such pain??? y de hell tis is happening to me??? she promise ta tis sort of thing wont happen...after i really put real feeling n push myself deep into her, now she dun wan me to wait... she ask me to find a mor suitable girl... do she hav any idea i oni got feeling wit her in tis such long period???

tis feeling is getting mor n mor sux... i dunno whether i can stand all tis... i cant concentrate mor in my work nor life... all my brain now is full of her tis is suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...

now my heart stil pain while i'm writing tis... my tear keep rolling down.. no matter wat i do, it jz wont stop...my eye is so swollen now... i dunno wat can i do wit it... i stil hav work... i cant claim mc or offday such sudden...

haiz.... god help me...
plz... i pray 4 ur light to guide me out of tis sahdow... i ask 4 ur hand to get me out from tis dark hole i jz fall in...

haiz

she wanna abondon me ad..............
wat should i do???
sumone help me....

alam damai sucks... no comp hre...
too free hre... but stil can met bee hre...

going to alam damai today... dunno whether can get wat i wan anot... hopefully every thing go smoothly... haiz... N i so going to miss kylie... haiz...

happy day

Finally she wiling to erhem wit me...
we even forget to count... haha... we erhem quite long oso...