she get bully??

should i???
i really dunno...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tat day i got an interview
but i kinda mess up...
if u ask me did i ask her anything or tel her anything abt tis, sory no...
i hav no guts 4 her..
haiz

passer by in her life???
give up... hahahahahaaahahahahahhah..............................
i really crazy ad... who can send me to mental hospital now??? plz................. ned urgent intensive care now....

no turning bac... she so mis understand my meanig ad... hahahhahahahahhaha......
i think i so gonig to be crazy by now.....

no matter wat i explain now, it is really going to no turning bac of tis pain now....... cz she ad let it all go... there is really nothing i can do.... no mor... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

finally she ask it.........

she tel me she ad tel her mom abt us... she say she dun lik my nature... n her nature not suit me...
she really dun wan tis relation ship anymor... maybe after spm, she wil reconsider bac... when i hear tis my heart immediately get as pain as last few day... jz it is mor painful tis time... my tear ooze out lik lava flowing out from a jz exploding volcano... nothing i do stop it... my mom came home n jz around to saw it... i say tat i was cutting onion 4 cooking maggi jz now... wat is happening to my tear gland??

do i really deserve such pain??? y de hell tis is happening to me??? she promise ta tis sort of thing wont happen...after i really put real feeling n push myself deep into her, now she dun wan me to wait... she ask me to find a mor suitable girl... do she hav any idea i oni got feeling wit her in tis such long period???

tis feeling is getting mor n mor sux... i dunno whether i can stand all tis... i cant concentrate mor in my work nor life... all my brain now is full of her tis is suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...

now my heart stil pain while i'm writing tis... my tear keep rolling down.. no matter wat i do, it jz wont stop...my eye is so swollen now... i dunno wat can i do wit it... i stil hav work... i cant claim mc or offday such sudden...

haiz.... god help me...
plz... i pray 4 ur light to guide me out of tis sahdow... i ask 4 ur hand to get me out from tis dark hole i jz fall in...

haiz

she wanna abondon me ad..............
wat should i do???
sumone help me....

alam damai sucks... no comp hre...
too free hre... but stil can met bee hre...

going to alam damai today... dunno whether can get wat i wan anot... hopefully every thing go smoothly... haiz... N i so going to miss kylie... haiz...